More Over Life

'Ohh!! What the hell??' I started murmuring around on my own. 

I moved towards the rest room to wash my hands with the help of that slow declining light. I came out in a hurry, closed my eyes and joined hands. I started with my evening prayers.

My brain was neither synchronized with my heart nor with the words coming out of my mouth. In that pin drop silence, the only audible sound was of the hymns. However,that sound was audible only to my ears, and unfortunately, it never reached my mind and soul. Deep within there were hundreds of wishes, fantasies and other not so important stuff : 'O God..Why you did this to me..? Why you did that to me..? I want this..I do not want that.. What I'll eat today..Today she was looking too pretty..' There was a large chaos in the two most important decision making parts of my life.

I don't even know, when I opened my eyes while chanting my hymns. I realized only when my eye froze upon that light which was not declining anymore. It too froze for a while and started growing slowly. As it's size was booming, my eyes widened. Though there was nothing to observe in that darkness, but that cultivating beam of light was scaring me. My chants vanished in between fear and anxiety. The only last words which I remember are 'You always create a rubbish out my life. This time I'll not let you do so. I have always praised you and have not found anything good in my life till date.'
And finally, the light transformed into a vivid formation.

'Aaa..Who..who are you?? What do you want from me??' My voice almost fell to a whisper.

'You really can't recognize who am I?? But you love me...right?' There was an intense sorrow in that voice, which gave me some confidence to stand in front of it.

'What are you saying? I don't know you..'

'I am the one whom you praise each day, each moment. I am your creator..your Lord!!'

I was stunned at those words. I laid down in His feet. 'Ohh..Thank you God!! I am not able to believe that I am actually seeing you.'

'So I am here at your service, to listen to all your complaints. I want to understand what wrong have I done to you. What more do you expect from me?'

It was like a dream come true. I could directly tell Him what I want and how much injustice He did to me.

'Lord!! I pray to you everyday. I go to temple every morning. I know all your chants by heart. I keep fasts by proper means. Then where is the problem? Why you never observed my devotion towards you?'

'Oh!! Your devotion towards me..Really? Do you know actually what all those chants mean? Let whatever the meaning be..;do you actually ever even thought of me while reciting them or while being in the temple? Instead, with your hands joined, you were in love with your food, your clothes, your property..and what not..I waited each day for you. I expected each day that okay..today you'll love me, today we'll be friends. But.,the day never came..'

I was blank on hearing what He said. I had no answers to any of his questions.
'It's not like this. I admit I don't know their meaning. But, I have also done a lot for you.'

'Like what?'

'Like..like... I fought for your temple which people of other religion wanted to demolish last moth. You remember?'

'Yeah yeah..I remember, when on the name of religion, you did injustice with innocent people. You were a part of so many killings, though indirectly. But, you fought for YOUR religion, not for me.'

'You created me as a part of this religion and I tried to save it.'

'I created you as a part of this human race and not of any religion. You created religion. I did not. I wanted you to follow humanity; which you did not. I gave you a chance to serve the nature, to serve all the beings around you,..but you... you were behind that so called religion. There is nothing like my religion, his religion. There is only one religion which teaches humanity, to be selfless, to love. You loved.., but..just yourself.'

I was out of words. I knew what all He said was true.

'I was always standing there for you with my hand extended for help, but you never bothered to hold it. I could not wait for you now. So today I was leaving. But I was not able to carry the mark of being unjust. That's why I am in front of you.'

His words shook me from inside.
'How selfish I have become...I'm sorry.... I always wanted you to be with me. Don't leave..Please..' I was broken. I fell on my knees.

'Just remember my words. Between you and me; there's a congregation of people, creatures and nature. You don't need to repress them to reach me. Just be with them and I'll be with you.'

I cried my eyes out. I wanted him to know that I have realized my mistakes. But before I could speak out anything, He smiled.

'I know everything. And you will be a better being, I know this too..' He vanished and I fainted.

When I came to senses, I was lying on the floor. There was enough light in my room. A new day had started with all things fresh. It was like my new life. I got ready and went to the temple. There was so much happiness and contentment filled inside my heart. For the first time, my mind, my soul and the words coming out of my mouth were in sync. I had only one thing to tell Him 'Thank you Lord!!'