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   At this late hour of darkness, When the world is off to sleep

कुछ धुंधले चेहरों में.. इक पहचान अंजानी सी..
बेगानी सी इस दुनिया में.. सूरत इक अपनी सी...
खोजने खुद की हस्ती में..इक सवाल उलझा सा..
तलाश है खुद की...या खुद को खो देने की..

कहानी अनकही...कुछ अधूरे अल्फ़ाज़ों की..
बेचैनी हर पल.. सुकून भरी ज़िन्दगी बिताने की...
दौड़ है नित्य... बहकते क़दमों की..
मंज़िलों की ओर या राहों से  भटकने की..

हज़ारों हसरतों में ख्वाहिश इक मीठी सी..
सपनों से कोई जगता नहीं.. और चाह है..उन्हें हकीकत में बदलने की..
मौत का खौफ भी है..और ज़िन्दगी से शिकायतें भी..
कुछ कर दिखाने के जज़्बे में.. खुद ही को खत्म करने की...

मोहब्बत भी है..नफरतों में लिपटी सी..
ठहाकों की गूँज में..इक आह दबी सी...
वक़्त से आगे चलना है..पर साथ चलना भी हो पाता  नहीं..
ज़िन्दगी है इक पहेली... इक सच्चाई.. झूटी सी..

Dedicated to all the cute papa(s) in this world....

Fathers are special, though a bit strict... though they never show their emotions..., but yes, they love you and express their love in altogether a different way.., helping you in each phase of life without even letting you know.. 

जदों अखाँ मूँद मैं डरया खड़ा सी
मेरी माँ ने मैनु सीने नाल ला लया
मेरे ख़्वाबां चों वी डर नू चुरा लेया
हो मेरे बाबुल नू किसे ने ना पुछेया
जेड़ा बनया सी ढाल मेरे ते डर विच

जदों रोंदा सी कल्ले कल्ले बै के
मेरी माँ ने मैनु गोदी विच पा लेया
मेरे हंजुआं नू  चुमके चुरा लेया
हो मेरे बाबुल नू किसे ने ना पुछेया
जेड़ा रोंदा सी लुक के मैनु देख के

जदों नचदा सी मैं किसे गल ते
मेरी माँ ने मेरी नज़र उतार लई
मेरे नाल ओ हस हस डुल पई
हो मेरे बाबुल नू किसे ने ना पुछेया
जीने हौले जे ओ ख़ुशी मैनु दित्ती सी

जदों लगदा सी हुन कुछ नहीं ऐस दुनिया च
मेरी माँ ने मेरा हौंसला बढ़ाया
मैनु दुनिया दे दर्दां तों छुपा लेया
हो मेरे बाबुल नू किसे ने ना पुछेया
जेड़ा लड़दा पया सी कल्ला सारी  दुनिया  तों

हो मेरे बाबुल नू किसे ने ना पुछेया 

You saw me smiling
You heard me laugh
But behind that funny me
Was the saddest part

From the day I was born,
To the day I died
I wish I would have lived..
A day, which was completely mine

I too wished a day for me
For my dreams, for my goals
Yet that deathless bide
Atrociously crushed my soul

I loved to dance to the tunes of nothing
And wanted to go on an adventure at times
I never wanted to be judged or barred
I wanted to fly with my wings spread high

Though the reality was never in favor
I had too many roles, Still I was no where
My heart was chiseled by the barbs of injustice
I searched all over and found no savior

I opened my eyes as a 'restricted' daughter,
Closed them as a 'neglected' mother
Waited for love as a 'for granted' wife
Bothered for all who never ever bothered

Yes!! I was born as a girl..
To be loved, to be pampered
But alas!! Between someone and everyone,
Slowly and slowly, I died as a 'no one'

(A love song)
When I cry....when I laugh..
There's only you in ma thoughts..
When am still..when I ride..
It's only you I dream of..

I don't know how to tell you..
I don't know how to put in words..
It's just that I love you..
It's more than love..my love..
It's a bit more than love....my love..

You are the one I wanna live with forever..
I wanna take you to the stars..oh higher...
Don't take off your eyes..aah they drive me crazy..
Just love me back..Do me a little favor..

You're my love..you're my life..you're my angel..
Don't leave me ever..Never...
You are my need..and my desire..
It's more than love..my love...
It's a bit more than love...my love...

It's a bit more than love...my love...

You have gone to the other world
The world of magic and mysteries
But for me you are still here
Deep down in my heart and memories

I miss your smile, your tears, your talks
Funny you and your guiding love
Your aroma drives me crazy though
In every bit and piece of my world

I wish if I could steal you
And hold you tight in my fist
But alas..I could not
You are far..far beyond my reach

I wanna see you, I wanna love you
I wanna hold you and feel your touch
But the moment I raise my hand
I realize its just your mirage..

I wanna make you sleep in my lap
And kiss your forehead when slept
Wanna caress your hair and relax
And watch you.. till your fingers crept

I know you are gone
For now and forever..
Still my love..Please come back..
I would love you like.. it never happened ever

Free like a bird...Soar high in the sky
Wings of fire...With excitement & joy
Slide by the rainbows..Perch on a cloud
Dip and dive...And sing out loud.

Deep like an ocean..Tranquil as its tides
Filled with memories...A fisherman's pride
Ready to rage..And kiss the beach
Saline beauty..In no one's reach

Pretty like a flower..Accent of heart
Solace to beings..Dignity to Lord
A painter's darling..A poet's dream
Soft scent..A sparkling gleam

Giant like a mountain..With the age of 'Time'
Old cells of treasure..A mountaineer's chime
Tickling rivers...And the lush green bliss
Untold mysteries..The nature's glitz

जिस राह को ठुकराके मंज़िलें चूमने लगे..
उस राह को इंतज़ार आज भी है..
आएगा इक मुसाफिर.. हमसे भी मुलाकात करने..
उस इंतज़ार में वो जज़्बा आज भी है...

जिन ख्वाहिशों को दबोच करवटें लेने लगे..
उन सपनों को इंतज़ार आज भी है..
कोई पूरा करेगा इन्हे भी.. रेशमी धागों से..
उस इंतज़ार में वो तलब आज भी है..

जिन ठहाकों को छोड़ खुशियाँ ढूंढने लगे..
उस हसी को इंतज़ार आज भी..
कोई लाएगा इसे होठों पे.. बेहिचक से..
उस इंतज़ार में वो बेकरारी आज भी है..

जिन आँखों का सुकून छीन मायूसी भरने लगे..
उन नज़रों को इंतज़ार आज भी है..
कोई प्यार से चुरा लेगा उनकी नमी..
उस इंतज़ार में वो शिकायत आज भी है..

इंतज़ार है आज भी कुछ अधूरी हसरतों का..
कुछ अनकही बातों का.. कुछ टूटते रिश्तों का..
कोई बटोर देगा इन बिखरे जज़्बातों को
उस इंतज़ार में वो तमन्ना आज भी है.. 

I haven't seen you..but have felt you..
In my thoughts..in my fantasies..
In my imaginations..I have loved you..
And am eager to hold you in reality..

It doesn't matter if you would be dark..
Or a bit fat..or short..
What matters are your thoughts..
Fair..broad..and not short..

You should pamper me a lot..
And love my silly attitude..
Know how to pacify...
When I'm dejected and wistful..

Hug me from behind..
And kiss me often..
Let the romance be in air..
And life would be awesome..

I would love to have pillow fights..
And run around the floors..
I would love to blabber all time
In the morning till 4.

The sun would rise wondering..
What's new gonna happen..
And would set with a smile..
Calm and with satisfaction.

I would rest in your arms
Like  an innocent naughty princess..
From a day full of surprises,
This feeling would be the nicest..

I'm waiting for you my love..
You are The Man Of My Dreams..
I know..One day you'll come..
And this dream would be evinced..

दर्द था बहुत.. कि  दिल से निकली इक गुहार थी..
लहरों के शोर में.. कहीं दबी  सी पुकार थी..

दो कदम सहमे से मैंने बढ़ाये उसकी ओर..
तो चार कदम बड़के.. वो बह उठी मेरी ओर..

चूमके कदमों को मेरे.. वो यूँ सहलाने लगी..
और कतरा कतरा दर्द अपने साथ ले जाने लगी..

वो आती इक तूफ़ान सी.. छूती मुझे वो कलियों सी..
जाती दबे पाओं सी.. और इठलाती तितलियों सी..

ऑंखें मूँद मैं कब मुस्कुराने लगी..
न जाने कब मेरे कदमों में वो पायल सी बजने लगी..

जो रेत ने पैर जकड़े थे.. वो उन बेड़ियों से आज़ाद मुझे करने लगी..
वो खिसकती रेत मानो पंख मुझे देने लगी..

मैं आई थी लहरों से इक शिकायत लेती हुई..
जा रही हूँ पर होठों पे.. इक धीमी सी मुस्कान लेती हुई..

वो हलकी सी छुअन बूंदों की.. चेहरे पर मुस्कान ले आती है..
जैसे वो शरारत भरी उंगलिया.. मुझे गुदगुदा जाती हैं..

वो ठंडा सा एहसास.. वो राहत.,. बुझाती प्यास..
जैसे तुम संग मिलके.. हर लम्हा बन जाता खास..

वो झूमते लहराते खेत.. जिनका खत्म हुआ इंतज़ार..
जैसे तुम्हारे ख्यालों में.. मैं नाचती दिन रात..

वो टिप टिप टिप टिप धुन.. कानो  में गीत कोई गाये..
और बिजली चमचमाती.. तुम जैसे रौशनी ले आये..

आंसू छुपाती बूंदों में.. हर गम  भुला जाऊँ..
जैसे तुम्हारी बाँहों में बंद.. चैन से सो जाऊँ..

वो तन्हाइयों में उलझी सिसकियाँ.. वो नज़ाकत भरी मस्तियाँ..
वो सुकून भरी चाहत..
हर रंग मोहब्बत का इसमें..
ये बारिश.. तेरे प्यार की इबादत..

It was the most memorable day which added meaning to my life..
I was in trepidation and was ecstatic to be a bride..

Tickled pink to start with everything so new
With a new family and a new journey too..

That blend of crazy emotions was only felt by me..
May be by my hubby too who was eagerly waiting for me...

I was incredibly in love...I was fantasizing..
I was smiling like a Cheshire cat in an emotional roller coaster riding..

There was a pain of saying goodbye..and a joy of being with my love..
That medley finally led me to be someone's beloved..

I'm afraid of the other side
The other side of me
I know it's there
And observing me

I'm selfish..I'm jealous..
I'm a hypocrite & a thief
But deep within I know there's someone
Who keeps noticing me..

At night..In my dreams..
I meet him everyday..
He looks similar..but alas..
He is equally afraid..

I'm abashed...I can't face him..
That melancholy in his eyes..
That tautness on his forehead...
It's enough to make me realize..

He'll not let me live
Neither smile nor abide..
Either of us have to die..
And I'm sure...I'll survive..

Hurray!! I've won
I killed him sometime back...may be a month..
But you know what..
This World is full of atrocious people..& now..I am done...

It seems as if he is back..
Earlier he was one...
And now he is with a jack...

I'm defeated everyday..
By new faces...by cheaps like me
And my other side laughs from their eyes..
'Its paying back time baby'...

The safest place where I could be..
Is your warm solid arms baby..
The tight you hold..the more I'm secure..
You'll never leave..just promise me..

Fill me in your arms..just wrap me..
Like a small cute doll baby..
And let me feel some peace and ease..
Be close...and just let it be..

Love can be conveyed through many forms..
But hugs have some specialty..
The crazy feel is at its best..
And love grows more madly..

Where pain and healing come along..
And fear comes in hands with faith..
Tears chaperon smiles and laughter..
And you dance to the tunes of a serenade..

Oh Yes!! I'm feeling the same..
I'm smiling when nothing's there..
This stupid feeling is yet so beautiful..
As if I'm flying in air..

I feel like to jump, to dance, to sing..
To fly, to scream, to blush, to wink..
To laugh, to cry and don't know what not to..
But yes I know..I Love You..My Prince

When a new born baby first cries..